#BlaugustReborn Episode 2

Today I am taking it old school!

When I first started blogging I only did it on my iPhone 1, so I figured today would be a good day to post a blog post from my phone. Unlike other bloggers, I'm not going to give you tips (unless you like tips. Just the tips!) I'm just going to give you real life blogging experiences.

When I was growing up I had a lot of accidents. I can't count how many times I fell out of a tree or jumped face first in the dirt because Superman tricked me into thinking I could fly. There were times I had to go out in the rain in just my underwear to surf the church parking lot gutter waves. One time I was feeding a dog sandwich meat and he bit my hand. I found out later they had to put the dog down for biting me. These are things I have to live with for the rest of my life. I don't think I regret anything I did and  sure other people would've done things differently. What I did makes me who I am and I'm proud of who I've become.

As a blogger I've had several blogs that I had fall on their face, I deleted, or I just gave up on. For me blogging is a very passionate hobby I choose to emotionally invested in. When I feel the blog is no longer me, I move on. I fo not have any regrets about my blogging past. Over the past 10 years of blogging I've met some amazing people. Out of those people I've probably pissed them off at some point. I've lost good friends by just opening my mouth or joking around with them. I can't think of a single one of them I still do not consider friends even if they do not like me anymore. For me it is the experience and community that makes it all worth it. If I've said something to make you mad, I'm sorry but seriously get over it you are just wasting your own personal time and energy holding a grudge. I don't have time for that shit. That said, I hold no ill feelings towards anyone. Part about f being a online presence is to interact and understand everyone to s unique in their own way.

If you are a blogger and you receive a bad comment don't get upset just understand everyone was raised differently and what they say might not be a personal attack. If you did not breast feed off them as a baby, then you don't own them anything and they do not understand you the way you think you should be. You are who you are and should be proud no matter what. There is only one of you and nobody has ever experienced what you have. There is only one person you should try to impress everyday and that is you. Remember, I thought I could fly and broke my nose. I do not regret that and to this day I still have hopes I can fly someday. My tip as a blogger is simple, you do you for you.

Love you!
-Scarybooster

#Blaugust Day 1

It appears it is August 1st and it is time to do Blaugust. I haven’t been able to write very much on a blog over the past couple years because a couple reasons. I will go over those reasons so you can be officially bored by them. Here is a list of reasons I can’t be bothered to blog:

1. I went back to school to get an education- This month I will be 44 years old and I spent most of my life being a dumbass. When I was growing up I had a hard time reading and had a bit of dyslexia. What I remember the most was being in 4th grade trying to read “See Pug Run.” It wasn’t until I was in 10th grade that I read my first book ever. When you do not grow up reading and you struggle with it, you tend to avoid it as much as possible. The weird thing about me learning to read at a later age is, I grew to love writing. From 10th grade on I started writing as much as possible and enjoyed it because it was an outlet for my creativity. The only bad part about writing and not learning to read until a later age was, I had a hard time with grammar and spelling. It really didn’t stop me from writing for myself, but I was too shy to show anything I wrote to other people.  Towards the end of high school I was very passionate about writing, but knew I would never be good at it, so I went to college for a trade skill, architecture.

I only lasted a semester in college before I failed out of it. Architecture was extremely boring to me and I became more interested in a girl with giant breasts in my classes. They were mesmerizing! Besides the godly breasts, I learned a valuable lesson failing out of college, school was not for me. Before I left the school, my English teacher pulled me aside and told me I was in the wrong major anyways and should really think about learning English more because she really enjoyed my writing. It was an amazing complement after struggling with reading my whole life, but college would have to wait as I signed up for the military. I won’t bore you with the details of the next few years, but education was not something I pursued for the next 20 years. So what changed?

In my military job I was moving up and what I wanted to be in the military required me to have an associate degree. While getting the last few credits for my associate degree I decided I might as well use my military GI Bill and get a real degree. That is when I stopped blogging. In December 2015, I started going back to school for real and blogging had to wait. I now have my BA in Information Systems and I am currently pursuing my MS in Social Psychology with a focus in human factors and technology. That is the technical speak for, mentally analyzing how people interact through social media and other technology based social interaction. That means video games, blogs, YouTube and other stuff that draws our attention to our phones more than old-fashioned social interaction. I’m watching you!

2. With the little time I have to relax after getting my learn on, I play video games- The last thing I want to do after spending 10 hours at work and 3 hours a night doing school work is to sit at a computer writing a blog post for your ass. Sorry, but you are not really worth it to me. I’ve tried to want to write, but I’m just too mentally drained to think about it. This point really leads to the next couple points.

3. I freelance for MMORPG.com- Most of my writing efforts go into writing for MMORPG.com when I get time. I love that website and I’ve been reading them since they were founded in 1997. I think if I was a better writer of content creator, I would try to invents more time with them and be a part of their full-time staff. Right now, I really can’t bring anything to the table they would really need me for. I have some ideas, but with schooling, I am unable to commit the time to them. If you read any gaming website please read MMORPG.com because the staff there are the best people in the world.

4. Blogs are dying- Sorry, but it is true. There are still people that read blogs, but it is not what it once was 5-10 years ago. With streaming and YouTube it is easier and faster to listen to a person’s opinion than take the time to read it. It is very sad to me because I love writing and with my history with reading, I understand how important it is to keep reading. Kids these days will be hurting when they are adults if they stop reading and only turn to video media. That and social media like Twitter gives people a quick fix of information without reading fluff. I believe things like Blaugust are great because it brings more attention to written words and brings the blogging community together.

5. I don’t have a number 5- There is so much in this world today that just sucks the life out of us and saps our energy to be creative. Over the last year my family has been dealing with a sexist boss my wife had that used his position power to ruin our lives. She spoke up and told the truth about something illegal he did and he used his power to turn it all on her. In essence in less than a year we lost almost $30,000 a year in pay because of it. We are not hurting for money now, but we have had to reevaluate our spending habits and future life choices. The worst part is, my wife now lives in fear at her new work. Whenever she wants to make a suggestion or try to fix something she feels like she is going to get fired or people think she is stupid. It is horrible to constantly live in fear because somebody has abused their power. We’ve seen this a lot lately with the #MeToo movement. The people that dismiss the movement are the problem. They fear their strangle hold on their employees and women are in jeopardy. Nobody should have to live in fear daily for being who they are. I can’t fix it because I am a white male, but I can say something if I see it. The Bystander Effect is a serious problem in our society that needs to stop. The problem is people like me. The white middle class male is so comfortable sitting on top of our throne of easy, we are too afraid to do the right thing and speak up against this shit. Sadly, making my way around the internet I don’t see any white males speaking up. All I see is more and more feeling entitled to be racist, sexist, and all around dicks. On the subject of dicks, what really makes you think anybody wants to see yours in a direct message? NOBODY! These are the people that are running our corporations, our country, and our lives. The abuse of power needs to stop or as a country, we will fall behind the rest of the world. More than ever, we need to work as a whole society and treat each other with respect because right now, we look like idiots. We have to stop pitting against each other because of our race, sex, political stance, gender, or religion. It’s just sad we can’t get over this hump and stop treating each other like shit because it might hurt our ego by understanding we are not special individually. We are only special together.

Welcome to day 1 of Blaugust!

Blaugust 2018!!!

The last time I wrote a blog post on this site was in April of 2015. If you don’t believe me just look at the post below this one.  I first started blogging back in 2008 when Warhammer Online was the new hot MMO. My first blog was called The Order of Destruction. All my blog posts at that time were done on an iPhone 1 with minimal editing. Over the years I had several blogs as I found new interests in the new HAWT MMO’s coming out. I lived on the hype of new MMOs and they all sucked. It seemed from 2008 to now, all MMOs just suck. I wish we could get out of this cycle of sucky MMOs trying to ride the coat-tails of WoW’s formula. Because I lost interest in sucky MMOs, I stopped blogging. Well, that is a lie. I mainly stopped blogging because people stopped reading words. Blogging has become a dinosaur when it comes to gaming information. If you are not streaming or Youtubing , you are shit. I discovered I was shit. As a blogger that doesn’t know how to do anything technological wise, I lost touch with the new kids on the block. Even though blogging is still a dinosaur and this post is just going to be lost in the void forever, I am still doing it to be a part of a larger movement. I joined Blaugust!

Blaugust is a bunch of old people that can’t let go of a dying media that decided to write a lot of crap during August. Don’t get me wrong, I love writing and I love the idea of Blaugust, but I doubt I am going to stay writing past August 31. I am just too much of an attention whore to waste my time not getting instant gratification. Personally, I would love to see blogging come back because I love writing and getting lots of attention. With my skills lacking in common sense, technology, and a personal filter I am unable to make any more excuses as to why I can’t do it, besides I am not pretty.  So, it appears you will only be able to read my crap for the month of August. When I say read I mean, I will only be able to read myself for the month of August. You see, I know nobody is going to read this so there is no need for me to be politically correct or give a shit what I am actually saying. If you’ve read this far please seek therapy.

What can you expect to not read from me in the month of Blaugust? Most likely I will talk about you and how much you suck. Oh, and I might talk about Warframe just a little bit. As you can see below, I have always loved Warframe and played the game. To this day I think Warframe is the only game I’ve played more than 600 hours on. Yeah I played a lot of WoW and Overwatch, but I do not think they come close to the amount of time I’ve spent in Warframe. I believe you are stupid for not playing it. I just had to add that to make sure you understood I don’t give a shit what you think and believe you should play Warframe more than any other game in this world. Let me give you a quick rundown as to why you should be playing Warframe. Because it is fun! There that was a painless list. I do play other game too, but it would not be fitting to talk about them in the same paragraph as Warframe. Here is my fake transition to the next paragraph I hope you are happy.

I started playing Guild Wars 2 again. I took a year or two off after Heart of Thorns sucked. In GW2’s defense, HoT did not technically suck it was just very hard on a person like me. You see, I’ve gotten trapped in a paper bag before and the maps in GW2 are big paper bags filled with my own personal hell. The most frustrating part of GW2 to me is the maps. I’ve spent hours looking for a hole to exit, which is hard for me because I have three kids. I don’t know how many hours I’ve spent crying in the shower because of the GW2 maps. When HoT came out and took the maps vertical, I didn’t leave the shower. Needless to say, I returned because of the mounts. The game now has mounts I can use to help me with my map phobia. Other than GW2 and Warframe, I don’t think I’ll be playing any other games for the next couple months. Even though I played WoW on and off for over 10 years, the new expansion coming out in August looks like it lacking anything I would ever be interested in.

I think I’ve written enough for myself. I will be writing more in the month of August and I hope you read it. I promise I will insult you more and write like I am on meth. If you like my writing please tell me. If you don’t like it, please shut the hell up and keep reading. If you still enjoy written words please read all the stuff people write for Blaugust. It is important we keep reading and not get dumbed down like the younger generation. Please support your local blogger!

PS. I didn’t edit this either because who gives a crap!

Blaugust 2018!!!

The last time I wrote a blog post on this site was in April of 2015. If you don’t believe me just look at the post below this one.  I first started blogging back in 2008 when Warhammer Online was the new hot MMO. My first blog was called The Order of Destruction. All my blog posts at that time were done on an iPhone 1 with minimal editing. Over the years I had several blogs as I found new interests in the new HAWT MMO’s coming out. I lived on the hype of new MMOs and they all sucked. It seemed from 2008 to now, all MMOs just suck. I wish we could get out of this cycle of sucky MMOs trying to ride the coat-tails of WoW’s formula. Because I lost interest in sucky MMOs, I stopped blogging. Well, that is a lie. I mainly stopped blogging because people stopped reading words. Blogging has become a dinosaur when it comes to gaming information. If you are not streaming or Youtubing , you are shit. I discovered I was shit. As a blogger that doesn’t know how to do anything technological wise, I lost touch with the new kids on the block. Even though blogging is still a dinosaur and this post is just going to be lost in the void forever, I am still doing it to be a part of a larger movement. I joined Blaugust!
Blaugust is a bunch of old people that can’t let go of a dying media that decided to write a lot of crap during August. Don’t get me wrong, I love writing and I love the idea of Blaugust, but I doubt I am going to stay writing past August 31. I am just too much of an attention whore to waste my time not getting instant gratification. Personally, I would love to see blogging come back because I love writing and getting lots of attention. With my skills lacking in common sense, technology, and a personal filter I am unable to make any more excuses as to why I can’t do it, besides I am not pretty.  So, it appears you will only be able to read my crap for the month of August. When I say read I mean, I will only be able to read myself for the month of August. You see, I know nobody is going to read this so there is no need for me to be politically correct or give a shit what I am actually saying. If you’ve read this far please seek therapy.
What can you expect to not read from me in the month of Blaugust? Most likely I will talk about you and how much you suck. Oh, and I might talk about Warframe just a little bit. As you can see below, I have always loved Warframe and played the game. To this day I think Warframe is the only game I’ve played more than 600 hours on. Yeah I played a lot of WoW and Overwatch, but I do not think they come close to the amount of time I’ve spent in Warframe. I believe you are stupid for not playing it. I just had to add that to make sure you understood I don’t give a shit what you think and believe you should play Warframe more than any other game in this world. Let me give you a quick rundown as to why you should be playing Warframe. Because it is fun! There that was a painless list. I do play other game too, but it would not be fitting to talk about them in the same paragraph as Warframe. Here is my fake transition to the next paragraph I hope you are happy.

I started playing Guild Wars 2 again. I took a year or two off after Heart of Thorns sucked. In GW2’s defense, HoT did not technically suck it was just very hard on a person like me. You see, I’ve gotten trapped in a paper bag before and the maps in GW2 are big paper bags filled with my own personal hell. The most frustrating part of GW2 to me is the maps. I’ve spent hours looking for a hole to exit, which is hard for me because I have three kids. I don’t know how many hours I’ve spent crying in the shower because of the GW2 maps. When HoT came out and took the maps vertical, I didn’t leave the shower. Needless to say, I returned because of the mounts. The game now has mounts I can use to help me with my map phobia. Other than GW2 and Warframe, I don’t think I’ll be playing any other games for the next couple months. Even though I played WoW on and off for over 10 years, the new expansion coming out in August looks like it lacking anything I would ever be interested in.

I think I’ve written enough for myself. I will be writing more in the month of August and I hope you read it. I promise I will insult you more and write like I am on meth. If you like my writing please tell me. If you don’t like it, please shut the hell up and keep reading. If you still enjoy written words please read all the stuff people write for Blaugust. It is important we keep reading and not get dumbed down like the younger generation. Please support your local blogger!

PS. I didn’t edit this either because who gives a crap!

Blaugust 9th: Compact Penis

Sometimes it's hard...

In high school the locker room was a place of self-judgment. Everybody was worried about their own privates. Do I just have a compact penis? If they ask, I'm a grower not a shower. Should I pull on it a bit to make it look bigger? Maybe I should glance at the competition? Is that gay? What if I get a boner? Is it big enough? I'm sure women have the same self-esteem issues in the locker room. They compare breasts sizes and labia. Sometimes they soap each other up and giggle. I'm sure of it.

Even though we leave the locker room behind as we leave school, we never leave the self-esteem issues behind. We might not worry so much about our genitals as we grow older, but we still fret over being good enough. Social networks are always pitting us against each other to see who has the biggest epeen. As an MMO gamer and a social condor, I'm always flashing my balls to the Internet. Good thing I'm older and they droop a lot more. They're like a half full burlap sack of potatoes.

Games are my penis on the Internet. I always want my game of choice to be big enough and popular. I want others to look out of the corner of their eyes and admire my game. I want them to play it too. Together we can have a fun orgy playing a game I love. Trust me, I get all sweaty when I get on VOIP.

The problem is, I worry if nobody wants to play with me. I want to be surrounded by the varsity cheerleaders stroking my ego. When they start getting bored of my game of choice I worry I've become flaccid and blew my wad of fun. That's when I frantically start jerking around different games hoping to be pleasured once again. This is when I become creepy and start running after the cheerleaders stroking my ego yelling,  "play with me! Don't leave me! Watch me! I'm a grower, not a shower!"

Sooner or later I find myself all alone in the locker room with my dick in my hand and my towel on the floor. Nobody wants to play with me. I have a choice to either, play with myself or put some damn pants on and grow up like everybody else. Unfortunately, pants constrict the baby factory.  There's a time when we all need to leave the locker room and not care, even if we're feeling naked and insecure about ourselves. There is a time to move on and not worry what other people think of us. It's hard, but letting go a bit will open more opportunities to meet people without worrying about our penis.

... being an MMO gamer and social butterfly.

Blaugust 5th: Crazy For You!

Every time I boot up Twitch I think about why I stream. Why am I doing this? Why would anybody watch me? What can I do to make my stream more interesting? How can I make my stream more professional looking? I don’t want to make money streaming or get millions of viewers, I just want people that watch me to really enjoy the entertainment I’m giving them.

As I wrote yesterday, I would like to stream a game of my readers’ choice for 30 days. I never required them to watch the stream or read my blog, just vote for the fun of it. I’m an MMO gamer and a lot of the fun in playing MMOs is interacting with people.  A lot of the bad crap that goes on is interacting with people too. You can half glass it however you see fit. I prefer the glass has liquid to drink. Depending on the people at that time, the liquid can taste great or be some nasty sewage.

I’m really enjoying Blaugust because it brings out the good in the community. Like Belghast said in his post today, it’s not about cramming in posts everyday just to win a contest; it’s about learning the joys of writing on a schedule. It’s personally rewarding for me to write and stream. I love them both because it gives me a chance to express myself in ways real life won’t allow. Well, it will allow if I want to be put in a loony bin. I like to entertain and have fun in different ways, Blaugust gives me the chance to find a way in my schedule to take more time out to do the things I love. Just like finding time every morning at 5am to work out, I need to find my perfect time to set aside time to work out my creative side. This community project is helping that. Not to mention I’m finding more and more blogs every day that I enjoy reading. I’ve even discovered blogs that didn’t do the NBI. That in itself makes Blaugust a success.

So what is my point in streaming a game I want you to vote on, but I don’t care if you watch? Streaming is a way I can verbally express myself and hone my speaking skills. I’m not a bad speaker, but I love practicing and expelling my thoughts in an open forum like streaming. I’ve had people leave my streaming channel disgusted I didn’t talk about serious matters while I’m streaming. My stream is fueled by games, but the power under the hood is my ramblings. Until people give me any type of feedback, I will always have brain diarrhea on my streams. My blog is the same way. You either love the way I do things or you hate it. I have several good blogging friends that do not read me because they do not like my style; I’m ok with that and I never hold it against them. I love that they are honest with me and can tell me they do not read me, but they like who I am as a person.

No matter what you should vote on the game I should play. It’s all in good fun even if you don’t give a crap.

Blaugust 4th: Faffing

Because Belghast invented Blaugust, I decided to use his word of choice when he just feels like random gaming. For the next 30 days I want my readers to decided what game I play and stream for 30 days. I slapped a poll up on my blog's side bar you can vote on. If you do not see an MMO on there that you want to see, just add it in the comments and I'll add it to the poll.

Right now I am enjoying playing DCUO and this week I start a new podcast with Sitting on a Couch & MMORPG.com for Firefall. I love all MMOs and I love the MMO community, so I would like to play a game for fun people might be interested in. If I get enough people interested and liking my streams/posts, I might refresh the poll every month to shake things up. Of course to be fair, I will remove the last game played so I get a bit of variety.

 For the sake of a great community project like Blaugust, please take the time to vote in my poll. In 6 days I will start playing that game for you. I'll stream it and write blog posts about my adventures. It will also give me content for Blaugust. I really don't care what game I play because I know I'll have fun doing it. Thanks for your support and please watch and follow me at Twitch for my awesome streams.I swear, you will not watch another streamer like me.

Vote NOW!!!

PS... If you know anybody that does web or avatar art please contact me!

Blaugust Day 2: Being Unpopular

This post is going to be short because it's hard for me to post on the weekends. I'm trying though to support a friend with his great idea. It's great doing great things even if it might not be the popular thing to do. It's never popular on the Internet to do something positive. It seems the Internet thrives on the popular and not what is right and what is fun. I've become one of the unpopular guys because I'm not playing the FoTM game. Even though I've been riding the adrenaline high of the speeding beta trains coming out over the past 6 years, it's time for me to get off and enjoy myself. Even if it means all by myself.

The last month I've been playing DC Universe Online. It's not an amazing game, but it is super fun to me. It let's me get in and learn about superheroes. I'm not a comic book fan so I don't know a lot of these stories. The game is like my comic book in motion. I'm having a lot of fun even though I'm not playing with anybody. Yeah I'm in a small, wonderful guild, but most of the time it's only 2 or 3 of us online at a time.

I finally made it to level 30.it only took me 22 days to do. I'm not a hard core player either. A guy in our guild made it from 1-30 in 3 days. Once you hit 30 a bunch of really cool story arches open up. Surprisingly, the grouping in the game is painless and super fast. As a DPS it only took me 20 sec to find a 4 person group.

So, even though I'm playing an unpopular game and streaming my fun every night, I really don't care like I used to. I used to worry if someone was reading my words or if anybody was going to play with me. I feel a lot of the problem with my game hoping was my fault of depending on other people to have fun. I quit playing some really awesome games because others left after 30 days. Wildstar is one of those games. I love that game and I plan on going back to it very soon. When I do I'm going to play by myself, for myself. I won't depend on other people to help me make fun. The best thing DCUO had taught me is to have fun by myself.

Of course I wish all my Internet buddies played DCUO, but I think I wouldn't have enjoyed it as much with them there. I think I would've worried about what they thought and if they were going to play with me. I'm glad they haven't taken interest in it so I could find my own way. I had time to find my gaming voice like my blog voice. It's my style and I need to do what makes me feel happy no matter what everybody else is saying or doing. I might be an unpopular blogger with a wacky style playing an unpopular game, but damn I'm having a great time doing it.

#Blaugusting

Right now my work schedule is nuts! I'm still going to try to do a post every day this month, even on my birthday. Yeah, August is the month my mother jettisoned me out of her ladies bits. This year I turn 40 and I realize I can die any minute now. You might want to worry if I don't post everyday this month. You never know, I could just stop being any second now. If you're not reading this right now that means I died before I even posted it. Are you reading this? Did I make it to the next paragraph?

Luckily, I made it this far. I pressed the space bar, felt a bit light-headed, and continued with: Luckily, I made it this far. I pressed the space bar, felt a bit light-headed, and continued with: Luckily, I made it this far. I pressed the space bar, felt a bit light-headed, and continued with: Luckily, I made it this far. I pressed the space bar, felt a bit light-headed, and continued with:

Wow, a whole paragraph of me repeating myself. Old people do that a lot. I fear my lawn is becoming more important to me and stairs are a challenge not a place to play Hot Wheels.  It's getting harder and harder to stay positive about things and take time to have fun.

People around me are dying left and right. My best blogger friend, River died recently at the age of 42.a guy at work just died from a heart attack at age 46. In the early 1960's the average age was 35 for adults. I don't know about you, but I'm a bit worried I could die soon. I always thought as a kid I would only survive to age 42. I have 2 more years left on this earth according to my math. I'm good at math too. If you haven't noticed yet, I'm a bit of a genius. In the 1960's I would've been considered a Greek God of sorts.

When I turn 40 this month I might inject myself with gamma rays or replace my blood with nanobots. I feel if I live forever, I could save humanity from itself. What do you think? Should I tap into eternal life and rule the Internet?

Talking about the Internet I plan on ruling, Belghast has a really awesome idea for community orginess. I always try to help build friendships over the Internet with cool tasks like this. I never know, one of you could be carrying my casket to my final resting place next week, month, year, second.. It's ok to cry.

So, I'm extremely busy this month. I'm going to try to blog everyday even if it kills me. I might have to make toast while I'm in the bathtub or tweak lighting rods on a cell tower on the Perfect Storm, but I will try my damnest to post everyday this month. Just to prove I'm better than you. It's ok to envy me. I have a large penis and hot wife too. I can feel you now lusting. Bring the sins to me.

If I haven't been taking from this world in the month I came into this world, expect me to post everyday. You've been warned!